[He listens quietly. There's a lot that's difficult to imagine -- an otherworldly setting, intergalactic travel, technology beyond his understanding...
But what happened... the loss, the despair, that part is plenty vivid.]
...Then, I had to lead the Eighth. I had to survive, and pick up the pieces. I had no choice but to do what they wished of me, and what the people of the galaxy needed. I've been their prime minister for seventeen years. And I'm good at it. I made sure we could build the society that they left behind.
[ ... ]
...But every single day was a struggle. For the first hundred days, I locked myself in my house and didn't see anyone. I did nothing but work, and grieve. After that, I started to leave to manage things as the Prime Minister when the old one passed away, because I had to, but the grief never stopped. More than once, I tried to kill myself and stopped myself at the last second, because I had to stay alive. They died for me, and the galaxy needed me, so I forced myself to live.
It didn't feel like living. In fact, waking up here - and waking up here, with Lin, felt like a relief.
Love doesn't always have to be romantic, you know. [ but yours clearly is. anyway ] That's not really the point, anyway - the point is more so the bravery than anything else.
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But what happened... the loss, the despair, that part is plenty vivid.]
Then, you...
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[ ... ]
...But every single day was a struggle. For the first hundred days, I locked myself in my house and didn't see anyone. I did nothing but work, and grieve. After that, I started to leave to manage things as the Prime Minister when the old one passed away, because I had to, but the grief never stopped. More than once, I tried to kill myself and stopped myself at the last second, because I had to stay alive. They died for me, and the galaxy needed me, so I forced myself to live.
It didn't feel like living. In fact, waking up here - and waking up here, with Lin, felt like a relief.
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... So that's why you reacted so strongly at the trial.
[To the attempted self-sacrifice.]
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That's why. [ ... ] I know too many brave people who think that giving someone their entire life is the only way to show that they love you.
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I wasn't really trying to prove anything...
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Love doesn't always have to be romantic, you know. [ but yours clearly is. anyway ] That's not really the point, anyway - the point is more so the bravery than anything else.
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... don't want her to die.