[ it takes until tuuri makes her way over to sit beside him for bixing to actually notice that someone else is there. he doesn't quite startle, but he does look over, and his expression goes a little surprised before his brows knit together and he gives her a small smile. ]
...It's... [ just the first syllable here is a little wet, like - well, it's hard to tell in the dark, but there's a cadence into his voice that suggests he might have been crying.
but he buttons it up. prime minister lu bixing; someone's here who needs you. ] ...well, I won't lie and say it's fine, but...maybe that it's going to be alright. They're all just a message away.
[Oh. Hearing that makes her feel like she's going to tear up too. She has to take a moment to just breathe and steady herself. She might feel like her heart is being squeezed in her chest, but it's temporary, she knows that.
It's fine. Everything's fine. It'll all be fine.
As long as she can keep believing that, she can keep going.]
I'll be okay. You're right, they're all just a message away.
And... I know Kon really, really wanted to find a way to return the others back to where we are.
[ so he'll work hard. but it doesn't soften the blow, for lu bixing - everyone's dad, sure, but... kon was just like him, after all. a hard working engineer, a young prodigy. someone that lu bixing saw like a successor. someone who, just the night before, he'd talked with faint excitement with, about the future. about bringing him back to the eighth. about the potential for the projects he could pick up, about bringing biotech back for his father figure's injuries, about...
... he doesn't dwell on it, because he can't. instead, he just gives tuuri a smile. ] I want to do that, too, so. We just have to keep trying.
[It's hard, to keep on moving after everything that's happened. It all feels so heavy on her shoulders. She comes from a deathworld where you see the end results of a horrible virus all the time, but seeing people die in front of you is way, way different. These are normal, healthy people. This is all wrong.
But if they can change it- if they can bring everyone back and fix everything, then she'll gladly help in any way she can.]
We can't give up here, not when we're so close. We know the others are no more dead than we are, so there must be a way to bring them to the party.
[ his answer's quiet, but, no less determined for it, though... he's definitely lacking his usual happiness, here, even if he's doing a good job trying to hide it. ]
... I promised him I'd bring him back with me, after all.
[ the end of this, to the party. or, maybe even just through tomorrow. he doesn't know, either way, but he looks up when tuuri does, and for a moment, just looks so, so sad. ]
But... the same thing I always do. Talk to the person. Try to figure out why. Help the others. [ a pause - and then bixing huffs a tiny laugh. ] Make cookies again.
[ lu "number one accidental murderer stan" bixing ]
More than anything, I just want to know the why. I want to try to understand. Everyone who's done this so far has had their reasons, and none of them bring someone back to life, but they're reasons, nonetheless. I want to hear them.
There's really only one person in the world I think I've ever been that angry with, and even then - even then, I know where she came from. And even though she tried to take everything from me, I can't hate her for it.
I think this week, especially, I want to know why. I can't say that I'm surprised, but... maybe disappointed, is a better word. Our numbers dropped low.
[ down to twenty, even. he sighs. ] Maybe it was an accident - who knows. I guess we won't know until tomorrow.
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...It's... [ just the first syllable here is a little wet, like - well, it's hard to tell in the dark, but there's a cadence into his voice that suggests he might have been crying.
but he buttons it up. prime minister lu bixing; someone's here who needs you. ] ...well, I won't lie and say it's fine, but...maybe that it's going to be alright. They're all just a message away.
Are you okay?
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It's fine. Everything's fine. It'll all be fine.
As long as she can keep believing that, she can keep going.]
I'll be okay. You're right, they're all just a message away.
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[ so he'll work hard. but it doesn't soften the blow, for lu bixing - everyone's dad, sure, but... kon was just like him, after all. a hard working engineer, a young prodigy. someone that lu bixing saw like a successor. someone who, just the night before, he'd talked with faint excitement with, about the future. about bringing him back to the eighth. about the potential for the projects he could pick up, about bringing biotech back for his father figure's injuries, about...
... he doesn't dwell on it, because he can't. instead, he just gives tuuri a smile. ] I want to do that, too, so. We just have to keep trying.
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[It's hard, to keep on moving after everything that's happened. It all feels so heavy on her shoulders. She comes from a deathworld where you see the end results of a horrible virus all the time, but seeing people die in front of you is way, way different. These are normal, healthy people. This is all wrong.
But if they can change it- if they can bring everyone back and fix everything, then she'll gladly help in any way she can.]
We can't give up here, not when we're so close. We know the others are no more dead than we are, so there must be a way to bring them to the party.
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[ his answer's quiet, but, no less determined for it, though... he's definitely lacking his usual happiness, here, even if he's doing a good job trying to hide it. ]
... I promised him I'd bring him back with me, after all.
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[She looks away, up towards the sky now. As if it has the answers she's been looking for and she hasn't been searching endlessly for weeks.]
He...he has a good future ahead of him. They all do. So we'll rescue them.
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[ the end of this, to the party. or, maybe even just through tomorrow. he doesn't know, either way, but he looks up when tuuri does, and for a moment, just looks so, so sad. ]
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[She pauses there, considering something. Rolling a thought over in her mind.]
What are you going to do tomorrow? When we figure it all out, I mean.
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[ if we figure it all out.
but. he's quiet, thoughtful for a moment. ]
But... the same thing I always do. Talk to the person. Try to figure out why. Help the others. [ a pause - and then bixing huffs a tiny laugh. ] Make cookies again.
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[She doesn't actually know if he's angry or not, but anger seems to be a common emotion in these trials.]
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... I'm not. I haven't been with anyone.
[ lu "number one accidental murderer stan" bixing ]
More than anything, I just want to know the why. I want to try to understand. Everyone who's done this so far has had their reasons, and none of them bring someone back to life, but they're reasons, nonetheless. I want to hear them.
There's really only one person in the world I think I've ever been that angry with, and even then - even then, I know where she came from. And even though she tried to take everything from me, I can't hate her for it.
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Who's that? Someone from your world?
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[ he doesn't quite twitch, but he exhales out, slow, and shakes his head. ] It's a long story.
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[She won't press further, if he doesn't want to share.]
I feel the same, though. I don't really hate or dislike anyone here. No matter who is guilty, it's going to be rough because of that.
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[ down to twenty, even. he sighs. ] Maybe it was an accident - who knows. I guess we won't know until tomorrow.