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[ heh. that gets a little smile. ]
Me too.
[ there is not a single constellation he really recognizes, but that's okay. it's familiar. settling. like staring out of a window in the eighth and thinking about the world that lay beyond. ]
Something I think a lot of us have in common.
Me too.
[ there is not a single constellation he really recognizes, but that's okay. it's familiar. settling. like staring out of a window in the eighth and thinking about the world that lay beyond. ]
Something I think a lot of us have in common.
[ we're in the void....
bixing is. well. he's here. he's just kind of sitting at the dock, feet dangling over the edge, staring up at the sky, hands folded in his lap. he doesn't even notice tuuri approaching, or if he does, he doesn't really say anything.
im sure this is fine ]
bixing is. well. he's here. he's just kind of sitting at the dock, feet dangling over the edge, staring up at the sky, hands folded in his lap. he doesn't even notice tuuri approaching, or if he does, he doesn't really say anything.
im sure this is fine ]
[...ah. Dad to everyone here, right?
Tuuri will quietly walk down the dock- not silently, Lalli is better at that than she is- and go to sit down next to him. She looks over to him, and then bites her lip as she glances down to her own hands in her lap. It's only morning, and it's already been a long day.]
...I'm sorry.
[For everything he's probably feeling right now, mostly.]
Tuuri will quietly walk down the dock- not silently, Lalli is better at that than she is- and go to sit down next to him. She looks over to him, and then bites her lip as she glances down to her own hands in her lap. It's only morning, and it's already been a long day.]
...I'm sorry.
[For everything he's probably feeling right now, mostly.]
[ it takes until tuuri makes her way over to sit beside him for bixing to actually notice that someone else is there. he doesn't quite startle, but he does look over, and his expression goes a little surprised before his brows knit together and he gives her a small smile. ]
...It's... [ just the first syllable here is a little wet, like - well, it's hard to tell in the dark, but there's a cadence into his voice that suggests he might have been crying.
but he buttons it up. prime minister lu bixing; someone's here who needs you. ] ...well, I won't lie and say it's fine, but...maybe that it's going to be alright. They're all just a message away.
Are you okay?
...It's... [ just the first syllable here is a little wet, like - well, it's hard to tell in the dark, but there's a cadence into his voice that suggests he might have been crying.
but he buttons it up. prime minister lu bixing; someone's here who needs you. ] ...well, I won't lie and say it's fine, but...maybe that it's going to be alright. They're all just a message away.
Are you okay?
[Oh. Hearing that makes her feel like she's going to tear up too. She has to take a moment to just breathe and steady herself. She might feel like her heart is being squeezed in her chest, but it's temporary, she knows that.
It's fine. Everything's fine. It'll all be fine.
As long as she can keep believing that, she can keep going.]
I'll be okay. You're right, they're all just a message away.
It's fine. Everything's fine. It'll all be fine.
As long as she can keep believing that, she can keep going.]
I'll be okay. You're right, they're all just a message away.
And... I know Kon really, really wanted to find a way to return the others back to where we are.
[ so he'll work hard. but it doesn't soften the blow, for lu bixing - everyone's dad, sure, but... kon was just like him, after all. a hard working engineer, a young prodigy. someone that lu bixing saw like a successor. someone who, just the night before, he'd talked with faint excitement with, about the future. about bringing him back to the eighth. about the potential for the projects he could pick up, about bringing biotech back for his father figure's injuries, about...
... he doesn't dwell on it, because he can't. instead, he just gives tuuri a smile. ] I want to do that, too, so. We just have to keep trying.
[ so he'll work hard. but it doesn't soften the blow, for lu bixing - everyone's dad, sure, but... kon was just like him, after all. a hard working engineer, a young prodigy. someone that lu bixing saw like a successor. someone who, just the night before, he'd talked with faint excitement with, about the future. about bringing him back to the eighth. about the potential for the projects he could pick up, about bringing biotech back for his father figure's injuries, about...
... he doesn't dwell on it, because he can't. instead, he just gives tuuri a smile. ] I want to do that, too, so. We just have to keep trying.
...I do too.
[It's hard, to keep on moving after everything that's happened. It all feels so heavy on her shoulders. She comes from a deathworld where you see the end results of a horrible virus all the time, but seeing people die in front of you is way, way different. These are normal, healthy people. This is all wrong.
But if they can change it- if they can bring everyone back and fix everything, then she'll gladly help in any way she can.]
We can't give up here, not when we're so close. We know the others are no more dead than we are, so there must be a way to bring them to the party.
[It's hard, to keep on moving after everything that's happened. It all feels so heavy on her shoulders. She comes from a deathworld where you see the end results of a horrible virus all the time, but seeing people die in front of you is way, way different. These are normal, healthy people. This is all wrong.
But if they can change it- if they can bring everyone back and fix everything, then she'll gladly help in any way she can.]
We can't give up here, not when we're so close. We know the others are no more dead than we are, so there must be a way to bring them to the party.
...yeah.
[She looks away, up towards the sky now. As if it has the answers she's been looking for and she hasn't been searching endlessly for weeks.]
He...he has a good future ahead of him. They all do. So we'll rescue them.
[She looks away, up towards the sky now. As if it has the answers she's been looking for and she hasn't been searching endlessly for weeks.]
He...he has a good future ahead of him. They all do. So we'll rescue them.
Yeah. We just have to get through tomorrow.
[She pauses there, considering something. Rolling a thought over in her mind.]
What are you going to do tomorrow? When we figure it all out, I mean.
[She pauses there, considering something. Rolling a thought over in her mind.]
What are you going to do tomorrow? When we figure it all out, I mean.
...well, if.
[ if we figure it all out.
but. he's quiet, thoughtful for a moment. ]
But... the same thing I always do. Talk to the person. Try to figure out why. Help the others. [ a pause - and then bixing huffs a tiny laugh. ] Make cookies again.
[ if we figure it all out.
but. he's quiet, thoughtful for a moment. ]
But... the same thing I always do. Talk to the person. Try to figure out why. Help the others. [ a pause - and then bixing huffs a tiny laugh. ] Make cookies again.
Even if you're angry, because of who they killed?
[She doesn't actually know if he's angry or not, but anger seems to be a common emotion in these trials.]
[She doesn't actually know if he's angry or not, but anger seems to be a common emotion in these trials.]
[ he gives her a little smile. ]
... I'm not. I haven't been with anyone.
[ lu "number one accidental murderer stan" bixing ]
More than anything, I just want to know the why. I want to try to understand. Everyone who's done this so far has had their reasons, and none of them bring someone back to life, but they're reasons, nonetheless. I want to hear them.
There's really only one person in the world I think I've ever been that angry with, and even then - even then, I know where she came from. And even though she tried to take everything from me, I can't hate her for it.
... I'm not. I haven't been with anyone.
[ lu "number one accidental murderer stan" bixing ]
More than anything, I just want to know the why. I want to try to understand. Everyone who's done this so far has had their reasons, and none of them bring someone back to life, but they're reasons, nonetheless. I want to hear them.
There's really only one person in the world I think I've ever been that angry with, and even then - even then, I know where she came from. And even though she tried to take everything from me, I can't hate her for it.
[Well, that catches her interest.]
Who's that? Someone from your world?
Who's that? Someone from your world?
It sounds like it would be, yeah.
[She won't press further, if he doesn't want to share.]
I feel the same, though. I don't really hate or dislike anyone here. No matter who is guilty, it's going to be rough because of that.
[She won't press further, if he doesn't want to share.]
I feel the same, though. I don't really hate or dislike anyone here. No matter who is guilty, it's going to be rough because of that.
I think this week, especially, I want to know why. I can't say that I'm surprised, but... maybe disappointed, is a better word. Our numbers dropped low.
[ down to twenty, even. he sighs. ] Maybe it was an accident - who knows. I guess we won't know until tomorrow.
[ down to twenty, even. he sighs. ] Maybe it was an accident - who knows. I guess we won't know until tomorrow.
[ lu bixing is usually one of the first people to come and visit the people put in jail, but today, its a long, long time before he shows up. and when he does, he sort of - sticks to the back of the room, as he comes in, and just kind of stays there for a minute, like he's not even sure if he should.
... he doesn't quite come off the wall, but just lets his presence be known with a quiet -]
... Tuuri, I'm so sorry.
... he doesn't quite come off the wall, but just lets his presence be known with a quiet -]
... Tuuri, I'm so sorry.
[Tuuri is sitting in her cell, mostly thinking to herself between people visiting her, so that's where she is when Lu Bixing walks in. She watches him for a moment, waiting to see what he does, and when he speaks it makes her smile sadly.]
It's not your fault. I knew what was going to happen on Thursday night. I mostly figured out what I wanted to figure out, and then I accepted the outcome. So you should too, okay?
It's not your fault. I knew what was going to happen on Thursday night. I mostly figured out what I wanted to figure out, and then I accepted the outcome. So you should too, okay?
...I guess if I can't be lucky, then brave is okay.
[She says that with a little chuckle, like it's a bit nostalgic to her.]
I'm glad you're not angry. I was so afraid of everyone being upset with me and not listening. I was being honest, I wanted to find out the truth of what happened so I can apologize properly to Kon.
[She says that with a little chuckle, like it's a bit nostalgic to her.]
I'm glad you're not angry. I was so afraid of everyone being upset with me and not listening. I was being honest, I wanted to find out the truth of what happened so I can apologize properly to Kon.
...I'm sorry, Tuuri. That we failed you.
[ in so many ways. they failed kon, but they failed tuuri, the most - for not figuring out the final mystery. for taking too long. for voting for her anyway, for forcing zelgadis to go through the kind of trauma that he's been through, for - for all of it.
it feels like an apology is so empty. like it's the best he can do. ]
[ in so many ways. they failed kon, but they failed tuuri, the most - for not figuring out the final mystery. for taking too long. for voting for her anyway, for forcing zelgadis to go through the kind of trauma that he's been through, for - for all of it.
it feels like an apology is so empty. like it's the best he can do. ]
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