he knew it. he like FELT IT IN HIS ASS that he was watering up in the eyes. he sits up and pats the space beside him closer. the way you do for a dog that's like come here!!! ]
No.
[ he holds out a hand to accept him. ]
I was teasing you.
[ which is weird bc normally lu bixing takes these things in brilliant stride, if not flinging them back in his face.
[ lu bixing looks so pathetic. have you ever seen a more pathetic face? like, a ghibli tear comes down his cheek. 🥺🥺🥺
but he will accept this like a giant spoiled baby and take his hand, scooching over closer, much like a dog. he looks so sad. this is a tragedy. he sniffles. ]
...Really? [ 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ] I've been so scared, I thought, if that's a reason you can't love me, I won't ever do anything weird ever again.......
but okay he'll take this. this helps. he just feels so... insecure today, in ways he really doesn't that often? in the same way he has since lin initially came back, that he was so scared that lin didn't love him. it feels nice to hear that. reaassuring.
he sniffles a little and nods, lifting his arms to wrap around his shoulders and pressing his forehead to his. weh. ]
Even though I'm missing an eye and I read you a weird book to wake you up even though it was just because I really didn't think it was going to work and even though I'm not as happy as I used to be and did some self experimentation and -
[ ok but see you always got mad at him for that and made him take it out which is FAIR
but he is effectively and perfectly silenced by this hand on his mouth, blinking that wide, still wet eye at him, and... you are mine, all of it also effectively gets him to shut the fuck up.
it also makes his whole face turn red and he just nods, stupidly. ok. yes lin. ]
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w4, monday after bicker
Lu Bixing.
[ stares at from his place flopped in bed. ]
... Look at me for a moment.
[ u good. ]
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looks up from his phone
his lower lip his wobbling and his eye is very, very shiny ]
Lin, do you think I'm gross....?
[ oh n ]
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yeah.
yep.
he knew it. he like FELT IT IN HIS ASS that he was watering up in the eyes. he sits up and pats the space beside him closer. the way you do for a dog that's like come here!!! ]
No.
[ he holds out a hand to accept him. ]
I was teasing you.
[ which is weird bc normally lu bixing takes these things in brilliant stride, if not flinging them back in his face.
so he will be gentle for a minute. ]
I wouldn't be alive without you.
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but he will accept this like a giant spoiled baby and take his hand, scooching over closer, much like a dog. he looks so sad. this is a tragedy. he sniffles. ]
...Really? [ 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ] I've been so scared, I thought, if that's a reason you can't love me, I won't ever do anything weird ever again.......
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... No...
[ he pulls him closer. ]
If you aren't weird... in your own way, then you aren't my Lu Bixing. Right?
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he sniffles ]
...Am I yours....?
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[ oh that sniffle. this is pathetic. ]
... Yes you are mine.
[ he holds him a little tighter. oh.
god he's so mean. the realization hits him a little like a droplet of cold sweat on the back of his neck.
fuck. he holds him a little tighter. ]
Bixing.
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but okay he'll take this. this helps. he just feels so... insecure today, in ways he really doesn't that often? in the same way he has since lin initially came back, that he was so scared that lin didn't love him. it feels nice to hear that. reaassuring.
he sniffles a little and nods, lifting his arms to wrap around his shoulders and pressing his forehead to his. weh. ]
Even though I'm missing an eye and I read you a weird book to wake you up even though it was just because I really didn't think it was going to work and even though I'm not as happy as I used to be and did some self experimentation and -
[ please stop ]
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[ calling dr. biochip. anyways. he does furrow his brow even harder and then pushes his hand over his mouth. ]
Hush.
... You are mine. All of it.
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but he is effectively and perfectly silenced by this hand on his mouth, blinking that wide, still wet eye at him, and... you are mine, all of it also effectively gets him to shut the fuck up.
it also makes his whole face turn red and he just nods, stupidly. ok. yes lin. ]
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[ BECAUSE EXPERIMENTS BELONG OUTSIDE, LU BIXING!!!!!! ]
... How do I apologize.
[ as he slowly pulls the hand away. ]
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testing
the waters ] ....Say I'm sorry, Lu Bixing, I love you.....?
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... I'msorryLuBixingIloveyou.
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he has to push a little further, scooching in closer and really pouring on that puppy eye. wasn't he just crying like two minutes ago ]
Wait, I didn't hear you, did you say it...? [ coaxing ]
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he leans in and he
bites his cheek (face) very gently between his cheek. ]
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anyway this behavior just makes him coo, delighted, and he bursts into a stupid, boyish little laugh like a giggle, nuzzling up against his cheek. ]
I'm kidding, I'm kidding.... of course I heard you, I wouldn't miss something like that for a second.
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... I love you, Lu Bixing. [ he says into his ear very gently.
he only says sorry once. ]
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a
he just melts. like, totally melts into lin and leans into him hard enough to probably knock them over. goodbye. he's gonna die, now. ]
I love you too......
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