I know this is bad advice, but try not to focus on it. If it helps, most of the people here are going to feel some form of shame or embarrassment doing this - you're in good company.
[ most people are not lu bixing who is clearly not bothered but he also knows he's a weird little human sometimes. he gives him a smile, a little sympathetic. ] I wish I could offer a magic pill to make it a little easier for you, but I think we're going to be exhausting our uses of weird drinks.
It's not like that, I'm not-- if I were just shy or something then it wouldn't be an issue.
[...he debates, a few moments, before he exhales a breath. i'm doing time bullshit here bc-]
Alright, Lin knows some of it, gave him permission to talk to you anyway-- I've seen who's been dying here. The problem is that it could make me more of a target.
...had to retire early due to injury. Lavi's seen the extent of it, one or two others, but I couldn't really hide it from Lin in the first trial either. Just haven't let him see.
[gesturing to his left leg-] It's a good replacement, obviously, not like most can tell easily, but I don't want to be known as-- not entirely capable.
[ oh... fascinating. the curiosity on lu bixing's face stays, as he tilts his head a little in realization. his own new injury and debilitation is like screamingly obvious, so to have to hide it... ]
...I see. [ wow. ] That's... I can't blame you for being careful. Is it really obvious in its construction...? I wonder if I couldn't help construct something to help you cover it a little easier...
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[he's making an effort!]
Lavi can just do it again, it’s fine.
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[ spoken like a fucking scientist ]
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[he's a former healer, he gets it, looking at bodies is literally part of the job, but. still.]
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[ most people are not lu bixing who is clearly not bothered but he also knows he's a weird little human sometimes. he gives him a smile, a little sympathetic. ] I wish I could offer a magic pill to make it a little easier for you, but I think we're going to be exhausting our uses of weird drinks.
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[...he debates, a few moments, before he exhales a breath. i'm doing time bullshit here bc-]
Alright, Lin knows some of it, gave him permission to talk to you anyway-- I've seen who's been dying here. The problem is that it could make me more of a target.
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What is it?
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[gesturing to his left leg-] It's a good replacement, obviously, not like most can tell easily, but I don't want to be known as-- not entirely capable.
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...I see. [ wow. ] That's... I can't blame you for being careful. Is it really obvious in its construction...? I wonder if I couldn't help construct something to help you cover it a little easier...
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