[ she is so easily swayed and she hates how easily she's swayed, but how can she resist someone when they say they'll accept for all the good and the bad? when she is mostly bad?

there is little to change that because she doesn't know how to, and she doesn't care to. if you don't want her at her worst, you can't get her at her slightly less than worst. ]

Why did it have to be you who killed me?

[ her voice grows softer, as it breaks on the word killed. she has no compunctions about killing others, but she hates thinking about people who she wants to care about her killing her. ]

I - did miss you. And I hated missing you. I wanted to hear your voice again, but at the same time, I never wanted to again.

I want to believe you, but I—

[ am too afraid to. don't know how to. wish i didn't want to. ]